Energy Systems in the body- in Oscar’s footsteps I hope

OK- I gotta get this down so I can transcend faster- I think it will be helpful-

The energy that is “me”, the emotional, mental and spiritual energy appears to be supported by the body while it is alive. It is not too hard to figure out the functions of the non-physical energies and where the energy or energy marker would be stored, this appears to be well mapped out by the Arica System. The question of death boils down to what happens to that energy when it is not supported by the body. The question of life at this point is- since the flow of energy through my system has become freer, and I am paying attention to it, and I need to work more deeply with it in highly specific ways: what are the ’indications’ then? This also appears well-mapped by the Arica coursework. The conclusion may be that because of what is going on with me currently, it is very close to time for Hypergnostics for me if not time already.  Maybe this summer at last. I will definitely need and can use a vacation by then.

Ken Eagle Feather

As of late, I have been working a lot with Toltec concepts and indications I have found in Ken Eagle Feather’s book “The Toltec Path.” Specifically, the concepts of non-patterning, losing the human form and seeing everything as just energy. The early results seem to be a sort of mental housecleaning, an unhooking of attention from just about everything. I have been sort of framing the process by calling it ‘The Sword of the Void’. I am starting to deal with mental events that do not seem to be completely expressed in language, although I am going to try. When I tie them to the four agreements, I am beginning to see how these can be completely achieved as an emergent effect of something larger that happens as a result of practice. I am still very much aware of being at the very beginning of a long road, but I am pleased at seeing some of the early benefits.  Although it seems more Albert Ellis than Miguel Ruiz, I have found myself more in the here and now as a result of not needing it to be anything else other than what it is. I have the deepest desire to perceive the purest nature of the energy around me, and this has entailed removing any obligation from myself and redirecting energy away from putting any obligation on what I perceive, as strange as it sounds. As people may be concerned that I am discarding morality, that is not so as what is going on energetically is much more at the Macro level than just ethics, although the physical manifestations seems to be more at the micro/internal level.  The universe around me, including myself is perfectly free to be exactly as it is. This may be also considered ‘undomestication’. Although I hoped it would’ve been unnecessary to approach my life conditions from that angle, it is working, although it may not seem obvious at first to people nearest to me. When I first started Toltec practices, it appeared to those around me that I became more temperamental, but in retrospect the place I am now mentally is much better than even those mere months ago (a year maybe? My perception of time has gotten somewhat flexible at the least).  Also, I had been briefly distracted by some other disciplines because I was looking for the concepts that would push me to the next stage I was trying to reach- they had the words but not in the way I could apply them at that moment. Next stop: Toltec Dreaming.

Clarity & WTF

I have found it necessary lately to start getting clearer (in my early middle age) about what I really and truly want my life to be about. I feel the press of time, a slightly higher degree of urgency about my legacy. Maybe in order to do this I should forsake the idea of trying for immortality in terms of a masterwork- it seems egocentric if approached the wrong way. I have forsaken the traditional genetic path of reproduction, so that is out. I spent too much time thinking about low-income asceticism, but that was for the purpose of avoiding real work. That approach did have its merits, but I have moved past that idea and need to let go of all its last vestiges. I don’t want complete and total leisure, it’s more about control and independence without sacrificing lifestyle completely.  I wanted to find my rightful work, but I am not 100% sure even how to think about that. Instead, lately I have been thinking about what real wisdom is- what is it that I am doing when I evolve the fastest? What am I doing when I am creating positive change? What can I leave behind that will help the greatest number of people in the largest way, or sort of become a ‘latch’ for a level of civilization and culture that I see slipping away? My current job is good, but I don’t see it as a permanent solution to a culture that seems utterly broken. Maybe in a 60’s style aquarian rush to abandon all traditions we threw out the baby with the bathwater. I read in the Times that all those people who grew up in the 60’s and 70’s are having serious problems with drugs, accidents, suicide, poverty. I have a nagging feeling that my grandparents and great grandparents were doing something right that we may have lost, something about family,  community and stewardship that got subsumed in the corporate grind…I see a lot of ugly out there that is going to take a while to clean up, in general.  There seem to be so many problems that it’s hard just to see one, and the culture reflects that. The cartoons these days are just beyond strange. The video games are just pure carnage and slightly hellish visions.  The horror movies that people bring their small children to these days makes Friday the 13th look like Barney. The current pop music and hip hop scene is a total loss, there aren’t even decent real hooks anymore, just the same beats everywhere. I just read about yet another school shooting in Cleveland, and the graduation rate is like 55%. In Cleveland??!! What the HELL else is out there for kids to do besides finish school? It should look like my hometown’s grad rate of 90%+ and there is much more to be distracted by in Fairfax than Cleveland- someone’s got some ’splaining to do.  If I could keep the civil rights advances and the technology, I’d want to turn the clock back to about 1958 and take a Mulligan on almost everything that’s happened since.

Let it be known

Today there was a middle-aged man, well-read, perhaps with a good singing voice, who was just happy to be alive. Nothing needed to be anything other than what it was in his life, he was healthy, married and without any matters of pressing urgency. There were no desperate enterprises, symphonies and novels unwritten, cures for cancer not found that he was responsible for. He was perfectly content to run some  errands and wander New York City for a few hours, just grateful for the act of breathing, the processes of circulation, the thoughts that came and went of their own accord. He was not important, not especially noteworthy, but those closest to him hopefully found him good company most of the time. This was a good day, in fact, completely perfect just as it was.