I am kind of in the middle of a huge spring cleaning project, all my energy seems focused on that, there is not much left over between school, work and this recording I am doing. I am trying to keep a frantic element from infusing my business, that never helps. Instead, I think patience is called for. Rome wasn’t burnt in a day. Because of the fact that I had expected to be in a very different situation career and finance -wise by now, I do feel a certain urgency to my various to-do’s. I am beginning to suspect that things aren’t precisely where I’d like because my spiritual life has been an afterthought at best for a very long time. Instead of making it the foundation, the core of my life, it has been on the back burner, barely on the stove even. As I begin to rectify that situation, I am noticing a shift, a pronounced shift in how everything goes. I am not as angry. I am a lot more patient. My relationships are better. I handle unexpected results and situations better. I could say that I wish I started earlier, but it is what it is, maybe the timing wasn’t right. The more I get my spiritual life going, the closer it gets to being completely integrated with my waking consciousness, then everywhere becomes the temple, my awareness becomes meditation, every perception the Dharma, every person the Tathagata. My financial and career goals seem to pale in comparison to this vision, yet, they just fall into a deeper context and lose a little of their inherent stress factor. It becomes OK for things to be just as they are, which must be accepted and perceived accurately before any real change can happen.
